sad.

''sad?

haiiz....

dunno since when....

our relationship truns so sour...

does iit means that our friendship iis so damn weak?

does iit means that ii really dun means alot to you?

erms...

sometimes....

it's really a better choice to stay unknown for serveral stuff...

things won't always turns out lyk wad u wanted or expected...

prepare for e 'worst'....

but still..

there's always sumthing even more unbearable then e 'worst'...

.

im upset.

when ii read her blog..

ii jus failed to catch wads she's thinking...

maybe...

she jus never will put me iin her thoughts iin wadever she do...?

that's e lousiest things ii can think of now...

.

[["so sick of lyf, im only living for dance. there's nothing i can find to live for=/"]]

that's wad writen iin her blog..

it brokes my heart...

ii dunno wads wrong..

for nuts.

terrible..

ii jus feel terrible. still.

.

even after the talk wiif leen.

yes..

ii understands...

totally do...

ii thought about iit seriously last night...

ii know wad ii really want...

butt...

but...

butt...

fiine~

no more BUTS kz..

.

i was seriously stuned by wad she told me..

for that moment...

ii even doupts iif ii really knew her...

one of my presious..

do u know how frightening that was?

it's jus lyk a threat.

a real bad one.

then problems dun lie wiif anyone..

is that fine?

ii dun want anything to be shaken...

the best iis..

to go back to wad we once are...

ii keep giving myself excuses for wad had been done..

it's not healthy...

how ii wish..

ii did not ask you anything that day...

.

.

.

things are jus crul...

wad was done was done..