why must he say that to me...

haiiz...

Currently still very down for wad he said yesterday...

am ii really that bad?

ii tried to giive many many excuses....

but ii know its only a lie for myself..

ii was really sad to hear that....

'ii wouldn't be able to lead em'

'my sect will die'

its really a big impact on me...

people...

do ur really know how ii feel??

its bad..

really very bad...

iim so sad...

ii feel so down..

why must he say all these to me?

ii've tried...

and ii once thought ii can do it...

but why wash all my dreams away?

flushiing all of em down into e draiin....

it's bad...

really bad...

u jus wont know how bad ii feel...

u think ii dun want to do well?

u know how much it meant to me?

u will never know...

it meant alot alot to me..

ii dun want everything to fall nxt yr...

iim carrying so must weiight on me for e past months..

and had been really pressing on...

but why kill my vision?

haiiz...

still sad..

but dun worry..

ii will continue to press on...

even iif he tell me straight iinto my face that ii sucks to the core and wont be able to make iit for sure...