....

.....

ii thought..

ii seriously thought that everything is okiie todayy..

ii tried to look happy..

ii think ii did it..

smiling all e way...

ii was pleased..

to see e smiles on their face once agaiin..

my dearests seniors....

.

ii thought ii could get over it easily..

ii was wrong..

deeply wrong..

.

ii saw their blog..

all e alumni's..

they said they dun mind...

ii strongly believed that its JUST to make up feel better...

theyy sounded lyk they had given up on us...

we dont want that seriously..

im sorry...

ookiie..

ii know its no point saying all these..

but it seriously broke my heart.

ii feel so terrible once agaiin...

who can ii go to?

im sorry..!

we are useless..

ii seriously dunno wad else i can say...

ii feel real bad.. & nth else.

ii knew..

u guys rather stayy at 2000-2006...

when YOU are a gold band...

ii detest that..

yes.

ii got no right to comment anything..

ii seriously feel devestated...

ii know u guys are sad..

.but how can ur doupt our feelings?

of couse we would feel as sad..

do u guys really think that we dun care?

then what is the effort for?

omg..

ii really dunno wad to say..

ii hated myself more then anything for not able to mantain e efforts u guys put in...

but what do you want us to do?

ii guess u guys had disowned us..

ii've got nth to say.

i m sad.

ii serious cant believe my eyes when ii see all those written..

it broke my heart into pieces...

we were jus so insignifican to u people yea?

jus tell me staright into my face...

and ii will jus get lost.

u people are selfish.

u guys had ur wonderful memories in e past..

when ur achieved wad u guys want.

but us?

we cant even own a plesent memory.

u think we will feel good?

u think we are cold-bloded animals?

or jus so farkin hack care?

u are definately wrong about this..

ii strongly nelieve that nobody feels good...

even those juniors we had.

its gone.

iszzit really gone?

so u guys had given up on us yea?

.

ii couldn't take it..

once again broke dwn...

feeling so helpless and lost..

it's terrible to be gave up on..

__what can ii do?

ii felt lyk getting knock dwn by a car.

then all troubles would be ended.