May misses her old self.

hmms...

todayy was quite meaningful & fruitful too...

xD

shoped wiif adagiio..

hmms..

bought myself a miickyy top,at kovan wiif jx..

woohs..

it's not that cheap huhs...

cos me e whole HALF of my giiven bucks....

hahas....

ii was only giiven 100 bucks...

dint dare to report e real amount..

hms..

upload e piics some other dayys...

haven fiind a suitable inside and bottom yet..

anyyway..

ytd also got myself a ..agaiin.. miickeyy top...

hahas

really loves miickey huhs...

lols...

anyyway its really happens to get both mickey's stuff..

erhhs...

.

dunno whyy..

mood swiing once agaiin..

maybe girls really ain't so easyy at realations...

easy come easy go...

maybe some..

but not me...

haiiz...

seriiously thought that thats gonna be e past...

but ii feel lonely...

wiithout e fact that he loves me....

misserable...

forget iit bahhs...

hahas...

ii guess birdass and me facing same prob ahs...

lols..

cheer up once agaiin...

<3333

<3333333

anyyway...

adagiio's Bdae iis in a few hours tym..

hmms...

gonna wiish her a happy Bdae~!

so glad & thankful that God, had place thiis gurl iinto my 'not-so-intresting' liife...

to make iit actually more meaningful...

Thankyou my wonderful heavenly Father!

May misses her old self.

why must he say that to me...

haiiz...

Currently still very down for wad he said yesterday...

am ii really that bad?

ii tried to giive many many excuses....

but ii know its only a lie for myself..

ii was really sad to hear that....

'ii wouldn't be able to lead em'

'my sect will die'

its really a big impact on me...

people...

do ur really know how ii feel??

its bad..

really very bad...

iim so sad...

ii feel so down..

why must he say all these to me?

ii've tried...

and ii once thought ii can do it...

but why wash all my dreams away?

flushiing all of em down into e draiin....

it's bad...

really bad...

u jus wont know how bad ii feel...

u think ii dun want to do well?

u know how much it meant to me?

u will never know...

it meant alot alot to me..

ii dun want everything to fall nxt yr...

iim carrying so must weiight on me for e past months..

and had been really pressing on...

but why kill my vision?

haiiz...

still sad..

but dun worry..

ii will continue to press on...

even iif he tell me straight iinto my face that ii sucks to the core and wont be able to make iit for sure...

wahahh

Brand New Soul.....

Brand New Mind....

Brand New ME....

.

today's me was a brand new one....

erms...

aft much thoughts...

ii fiinally sorted out my feelings...

hmm

ii finally knew wad ii want...

ii simply dun want anythiing....

that's my nature...

iim so sorry once agaiin..

it's my fault...

for not sorting thiings out before ii does those stupiid & silly thiings...

ii realiised that frwns are more important then any thing else...

Thankyou,
adagiio..

Beef...

Jiiexiin..

And BiirdASs

lotts...

thankyou that all of ur had been wiif me duriing e periiod that ii feel real down...

ii seriously appreaciiate that alot alot....

=(

iim afaird...

really afaird that ii would not be able to let go...

haiiz

ii jus feel very sad...

my miind iis everywhere...

and my heart always feel sour...

iit's hard to make that decisiion...

ii miss him..

theres things that ii once wanted to do wiith him...

haiz..

jus so sad...

really feel lyk riinging him up...

but ii know n ii know ii can't....

after telling hiim those stuff....

ii really hope he dun think that ii hack care

sad...

Oh it wad sad...

everything had ended....

maybe it just shouldn't had started...

ii believed both of us was sad about iit...

ii hope he is..

cos iim...

never the less...

it was not a good incidence but a good experience...

we promised not to talk about all these now...

talk about iit when both of us iis really ready...

ii hope theres one of this day dwn e road...

ii had learned a lesson through thiis...

ii will never lay my hands on e catus agaiin...

never agaiin...

knowiing that it really does hurts...

but yet ii did iit...

ii hurt hiim too...

ii believe....

im sorry...

really & very sorry...

ii seriously dun mean iit...

ii never know that it will turns out to be lyk thiis...

it's a short period of tym...

but u left me lots of memories...

ii m sure ii will keep it...

ii know and ii know...

you will never waiit for me..

no guys does that...

iim sure u will get another girl sometym later....

but ii still choose to do that...

wiif no regrettes...

ii made thiis choice...

ii should deserve iit...

it's my fault...

iim sorry...

Broken dreams...

.

.

.

-- once agaiin...

soaking my pillows wiif tears...

today iis kiinda a fruiitful dayy...

hmms...

went for horn lesson aft e boriing lessons...

Beefoon was here to teach...

lesson stiill okiie de lorrs...

btw..

got scolded by Er jus nw...

so sad lorrs....

haiiz...

sayy...

he got wriite dwn e fiigure B e corche or dunno wad...

then we never play correct...

then guess he iin band mood that dayy bahhs...

.

then aft that went mac studyy wiif xueyiing...

wahahas...

so happy..

ii fiiniished almost all my homeworks for today..

hmmss...

then we chiit-chat on e 'boys topiic'..

wakakas...

wheez...

she saiid...

iim very xinfu till ii was afaiird to loss it...

hahas...

okiies...

but ii still wanna stress that...

relatiion iis really nothing fun...

dunno wad he's thiinking...

dunno wad he actually wants....

haiiz...

nth but troubles..

.

anyway...

once agaiin....

posiitiive posiitiive kkz?

.

jus hope that everythiing would be fiine...

n hopes that thiis will be a fiine relatiion...

yea?

.

How Do I Live Without You

I Want To Know

How Do I Breathe Without You

If You Ever Go

How Do I Ever

Ever Survive　How Do I　How Do I　How Do I Live
当你的手还握在我手中

　没有一次我还停留

　说不出口的感动

当你的手还握在我手中

　灿烂的笑容

不论过多久　

都让我心动
每一天在你的怀里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在　

不能重来

不愿离开

是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在

So How Do I Live

How Do I Live

How Do I Live Without You
How Do I Live~ Woo-Oh~ Woo-Oh~
当你的手还握在我手中

　没有一次我能放手

没有一次停留

当你的手还握在我手中

　灿烂的笑容

不论过多久

　都让我心动
每一天在你的怀里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在　

不能重来

不愿离开

是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在

So How Do I Live

How Do I Live

How Do I Live Without You
And Tell Me Now
Faye：每一天在你的怀里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在

　不能重来

不愿离开

是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在

So How Do I Live

How Do I Live

How Do I Live Without You
每一次我感觉你的存在　

不能重来

不愿离开

是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待

每一次我感觉你的存在

So How Do I Live

How Do I Live

How Do I Live Without You
How Do I Live Without You

How Do I Breathe Without You

chiinatown

Whee~

hmms...

abt her..

ii came out wiif e conclusiion..

let's do what we can do okiies...

.

anyyway..

later goiing off to chiina town to meet e cell...

then before that go eariler gai gai...

hmms..

everythiing seems so unreal.yet real...

wahahas`

todayy wad a memorable dayy for sure...

but sadly..

ii can't reveal too much...

hahas..

hmms...

iim so iin loved once agaiin...

people...

dun ask too much yea...

.

erms..

btw...

ii read jiiexiin's blogg...

jiiexiin...

iits not lyk wad u thiink...

iim so sorry iif ii let u feel bad...

sryy...

actually...

we loves you as much as we loves each other...

really..

actually..

ii had e same feelings as you last yr...

u r closer to her not me...

ii once crazed for you to lyk me more...

ii appreciiate both of you e most...

you gals are the one liighten up my boriing school dayys...

really...

trust me for thiis...

can we just go back to what we used to be...

Please...

to both of my dearest...

can we please dun ever giive up on anyyone of us.?

seriouslyy...

ii dun want iit to be broken so soon...

ii love you...

JiieXiin and Adagiio....

even more then ii love myself~

ii was so sad upon knowiing that....

sobbs

woohoos...

it has been a long long tym since ii blogged...

todayy iis a happy yet bad dayy..

anyway..

iif you thiink that its because nth had happened thats why ii disappear frm 'blogger.com'...

nahhs...

that's a no no no...

hmms...

actually....

there were many many things that has happened...

--ii felt werid myself...hahs..e more things happened,

e more ii din't want to blog.

hmms....

let me start wiif e reasons why ii decided to blog todayy...

.

deleted.

today was a happy dayy...

Miighty Horniists~!

Lisent up!

let me announce sumthing so impotent...

iim jus so in love wiif you girls~!

wahahahahas....

all e wonderful moments wiif you girls would never be forgotten..

ii will store iit up forever lyk pericious giift...

.

ii dunno whyy...

but today....

they keep sayying about them leaving..

ii needed to pretend that ii dun care....

but ii m sure that ii still yet prepared myself...

ii did not want to accept e fact...

n of couse...

its not a happy one...

.

do your know how ii started when ii first join ur?

ii doupt you girls knew...

ii felt so negelted n rejected...

trying soo hard to blend iin wiif ur....

many tyms ii failed..

looking from far...

how close three of you were...

so close...

alone...all by myself...

ii wanted so much to be one of ur...

ii does things which ii dun feel good myself...

pretended to blend iin well wif your...

but it was just not real...

.

ii din't know what actually happens..

one day...

our relationships had became thicker then anything else...

iim really one of your...

without knowing iit...

trust me...

the feeling iis diifferent....

it's just so real..

thiis iis actually what ii wanted you girls to know...

ii appreaciate the days we had together...

all good and bad ones...

this period of tym iis not considered very long..

but its long enough to be kept wif us for e lifetym as memories..

iszzit lyk wad jessica said jus now?

e journey would ends on e day we left band?

nahs..

ii will keep it for liife~

times actually fleas...

even when we din't even notice it...

it's soon tym when you girls are leaving..

so...lets cherish e tym left iin band...

e laughters,tears,joy,dissapoiintments....ect

we will share together...

& for Peiyun + Simin...

lets work together and keep e horn spirit going yea?

.

.

hahas...

jus out of e blues,ii din't know how ii came up wiif writting all these...

do you girls believe that...

ii wrote thiis wiif tears rolling dwn my cheek?

.

-Mayy..

My delication to my beloved mighty hornists...

anyyway..

hahs..

ii din't actually say much about todayy...

we went for e SSO horn concertto..

oh man...

iit was just so great..

hmms...

ii jus simply loves e sound of that horn..

e tone iis simply jus so beatiful~!

hmms...

and iim starting to fall iin love wiif string instruments...

e violin & cello sounds so niice and sweet....

beatiful..---

musiic's jus so magiical...

ii thank God for creating such a wonderful thing on earth~

Musiic....Simply fills iin e emptiness in me...