gfhj

arghs.

today supposed to be a not-so-bad de day.

but never turn out that niice leh.

siian.

anyway.

in sch still quiite peaceful.

morn.

have breakfast.

hehs.

Beacon iis nice!

den when to sch.

orhs.

got ST.

morn wanted to ask my dumb dumb teach me.

but in e end.

so 'overwheming' over there.

siian ard.

dun feel lyk doing any elses shiit.!

Forget iit den.

flung it.

dunno wtf iis wiif my chem paper.

diff lang??

.

monday.

bored bored dayy..

wiif bored bored lesson.

okay.

sleep & "holy" thur chi lesson.

lisent to my worshiip songs.

sliight improvement today.

nv sleep throughout.

slept abit at stupid F old man's lesson.

den wake up at last few mins.

do ALL e qns in e worksheet.

yea.

(by that tym,he only go thur e first 3 qn)

RAN all e way up to 3rd story to ask Mr Lim qn once bell rang.

*panting.*

lyk siao kia lyk dat sia!

cannot take iit le luhhs!

.

yea.

so overall sch iis okiie.

still quiite hiigh aft lesson.

den aft lesson went for Amath test.

still okiie.

ii hope mirical happen.

let me pass.!

5/10 ii happy le.

.

den went for sect.

when joshua iis asked to teach newbie jianhao.(lol)

yepps.

rot awhile.

till evening.

waiit for kim to come back frm geo triip.

went to CP.

Arthur & josh fastiing.

so suggested that we go liibary sit sit.

borrowed 2 books.

.

*here my emo-ness started.*

ii also dunno.

so fucked up insiide me.

ii dunno why!

nobodyy offended me.

.

ii did smth whiich ii really really regretted soooooooo much!!!

ARGHHS!

maybe iis because of dat.

ii actually saiid smth that ii should not say

very scared sia.

ii dun wan history to repeat itself ever agaiin.

iif there's a thiird person who knows that....

iim VERY SURE.

misunderstandings will start to form.

so....

ii simply pray hard & hope that NOBODY elses would know this!!!!

.

feel very aggitated now sia.

Super Damn Extreem!!!

.

.

.

God is Good.

God is Good.

God is Good.

__God loves me lots.

GOD LOVES ME!

wahahas.

todayy iis e day.

whiich ii looked forward to!
=))
indeed..

it didn't dissapoint me at all..
yes!

went to church..

e holy place where deliverence took place.

yea.

im set free!
GOD LOVES ME!

JESUS LOVES ME!

yes yes.

felt joy for e fiirst tym ever.

great!

ii felt real great.

im please that Joshua & Arthur felt e love of God too.

=))

anyway,

jj.chic ren.kim.

came too.

but for e special deliverence svc..

den went outsiide wait for us..

erms.

aft e svc.

we exchange our thoughts wif em.

hahas.

ii guess they dint believe bahs..

but anyway God's great yea.

.

ii've to fill myself wiif e love of God..

yea!

.

aft that,

have diff pespective of relationshiips le..

ii will not held on to u anymore le.!

jus see you frm far ii can say.

ii care for u.

ii think i lyk u.

but God's great!

hahas.

ii jus liift everything everything up to him.

he'll bless you.

& he loves you!

.

hmms.

let's update piicture!

our joyous faces~

.

in e train =))

me.kim & arthur's hand.hehs

kim!

dumb!

"Act" emo at bus-spot.

our legs~

Smile~

wah~ so briight.

nice 1. =D

.

went vivo wiif ophe..

den bought Doughnut!!

my favouriite snack...

VIVO'S DOUGHNUT!

hmms..

frankly speeking..

it's not that fantastic..

but ii jus simply lyk it lots.=)

yepps..

love e blueberries 1..

shop abit.

bought my baobei junior's biirthdayy present..

a watch!

sry for wiishing u late late..

but...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SIMIN!!!!

that stupiid ladyy.

jio me go,

say wanna buy present..

but ened up buying nothing..

werido.

.

felt emo for e whole day..

very very down.

love sick ii guess.

lol..

tot iii suffer frm depressiion..

& probally would need some pills or injection..

arghhs..

hehs..

but..

im cured..

wif jus a simple prayer..

muhahahas..

ii sounds so holy..

hehx..

but it's so true..

yepps.

ii wanna focus on God,seriously.

hahas.

so additional on e cold bath.

ii felt better..

hehs..

yay.

okay great..

im really really looking forward to saturdayy~

pst mike.

uh huh.

.

ahemms.

tmr got band..

*siigh*

band practices not that plesent recently..

dun lyk it..

siian lehs.

ii miss all seniiors!

ii dun miind playing 4th horn forever..

i wan my band to be good!

drop this subject bahs..

ii never lyk to tok bout this.

.

.

haiish.

charm ah.

ii very very slack recentlyy.

in studies ii mean.

sobs..

can sleep up to 5hrs in sch.

yea.

shiit.

this shall not be e way man!!

fiine.

lets fast & pray bahs.

lols.

.

.

tiime to be holy~.

wahahs

.

.

.

__depression's over~

time to get alive!

=((

ii jus came out frm my bathroom.

ii bathed wif extremly cold water jus nw...

haiis...

ii jus wanna let my head 清醒 abit.

need to sort out things iin my pea..

really very complicated...

Arghhs~

thiings are getting hay-wired inside..

Jui Ming ah!

May Lee!

please dun think too much..

Okayy..

that's it..

im going to turn my back towards these..

& not going to care.

yes!

.

but focus on God.

My heavenly father...

.

yepps.

went to church on sat.

bought Joshua & Arthur along..

yes.

actually ii really wanna say..

thankyou u guys..

for going church wiif me..

cos wiithout u all..

ii won't have the courage to go back once agaiin..

hope that ur will continue to go wiif me more often..

anyway

ii love e feeling to meet God once agaiin..

it's great.

presence of God was there..

teared once since so long..

yea.

He shown me viision.

He wants me to hang on there..

ii should!!!

.

__clean my brain lord!

E98

hmms..

todayy iis a niice day.

ii guess so?

it was supposed to be luhhs...

im pleased that "some things" never really affect my mood...

hehs

went for E98 BBQ gathering..

(sean says E98 sounds lyk some kiind of UFO)

Arthur.Kimberly.Joshua.Sean & JJ...

we went..

supposed to meet at 4.30pm..

go buy BBQ food..

("u all havent pay me yet!!!")

then joshua.sean.&JJ ended up meeting us on bus at 5.30!!!!

what the!

yeps..

so set off to Simie.

to cheryl's aunt' condo.

den led em to e wrong condo...

wahahas..

sry luhhs..

ii LU CHI.

.

den Chat chat. Eat eat. Play play. Rot rot....

den went back to sengkang.

send kim home..

rot awhile den go back...

.

wahhs~

we saiid bout e creepyy thiingy..

hahas..

den joshua very scared.

so my mum driive him back...

.

it's a niice day bahs..

ii lyk my friends~

thanks.=))

hahas.

.

.

__Niice & tired dayy

.

althoughh we still din't make iit................

.

tags replyy:

Vertyno: Thankyou uncle for ur support!!

haha.iim okiie le.

Adagiio: sorry to be so dissapointing huhs...

hahas.let everyone down indeed.

mayy

woahh`

iim feeling exciited nw~

hahas..

im goiing to watch transformer tmr!

wiif my 2G peeps.

& Happy youth Dayy to all my peeps~

yippy.

cant wait for tmr to come..

paryy that ii wont be late..

ahahs

.

ohhs.

ii actually felt guiltyy...

ahrmms.

wanted to mug todayy de..

& to carry out wif my evil plans for that old man~

but ii jus simply failed to do so!!

arghhs.

ii was busyy asking people out for e movie.

yea.

that my reason.

& e TV iis soso tempting.

yesh.

& he kept calling.

ii dun feeling lyk toking man.

.

SCHOOL : had obviously started..

nothing to be joyous about.

it sucks.

ii really really dun wan to diie in that old man's hand.

ii seriouslyy wanna do well.

ii want to start to mug soon!

.

& for BAND.

still risking my liife for it.

props thingy iis killing me too.

oh man.

ii dint know that e exchange wiif karine hiigh school iis lyk this week?

godz.

the songs required..

it's still here & there..

save me man!

yeps.

wanna go for sect pract.

but e props thingy needed me so much.

no choice but to kan zhe pan bahs.

.

MAY LEE jiayou!!